Sunday, December 26, 2010

Christmas 2010

This year I was acutely aware of Christmas past. I remembered good and bad childhood holidays, the year Ken was in the hospital, the year we had to move (in a show storm) right before Christmas, the year we took the kids to an almost empty hotel (all those Christmas decorations just for us). I missed my mother and my sister and my brother-in-law Larry, and others. I thought of many loved ones who are no longer on this earth. I guess it's a sign I'm getting old.

I am very grateful this year that we had both our children with us. We don't get to see Josh much, and we all wish that when we do see him it was for a longer time--still we weren't sure he was going to be able to make it at all and he did. We had fun.

The snow is deep this year, and it was almost story-like to arrive at Kris and Daryl's little farm in the country (looking like a Christmas card!), nice to have Trinity welcome us joyfully, "Merry Christmas everyone! Hurry, come in!"

Trinity, the Greeter of the DayKris and Me With Breads

The warm kitchen was inviting, the table set with Christmas red and white. We enjoyed three kinds of special bread, and sipped our coffee as Trinity and Kris distributed gifts. Trinity made gift giving and receiving all the more delightful--she was so sweet, thanking us all for her presents, and happily telling us what she bought us before we could open the package. Later we had brunch and then Ken and I dashed off to prison as Josh and Trinity went out to make snow angels.


Today Ken and Kevin and Kris and Trinity and I went to see "Voyage of the Dawn Treader" (one of the Narnia films--by far they best). I got the Senior Citizen discount. Not sure how to feel about that. Now I'm looking forward to a week off.

I am acutely,sometimes uncomfortably aware, how quickly things can change. I wonder what will happen this year. Kevin's kidneys are not functioning well (yet another complication of diabetes combined with other things) and so he's going to see a specialist in a couple of weeks. We all know, however, that a long and healthy life is not in his future. I know he's a little scared. It is a matter of when and what...but today he said, "It sure has been a delightful couple of days hasn't it?" And yes, it has.

I am thankful for a year when many of those I love most were nearby. I know it will not always be so.

1 comment:

Jeni said...

Seems we've both been in the same place -mentally speaking -lately. I always tend to get very sentimental around Christmas, remembering Christmas past with grandparents, my Mom, aunts, uncles and even cousins my age no longer with me. Why is it when we remember those days too rarely do we recall any tensions that may have been ongoing at the time? Or is that just my own memory playing tricks on me that I only think of the good times? I long for what I regard in memory as the wonderful days of yore and try to emulate them as much as possible but then, after the holiday is over and I realize how unsuccessful my efforts seem to have been, the whole scenario tends then to crumble into a bit of a blue bashing party with me as the only attendee. Looks like today is that such a day for me and since I recognize it as that, it's time for me to rework a few things in my mind. Think I'll begin with Step 1 of the Twelve Step program though and turn things over to my Higher Power. That's usually the best place to go when I'm trying to take control over things that I have no control over, ya know.
Maybe then I can eliminate a few of the little needling things that are agitating me and I'm not really fully cognizant of what they are at the moment. Peace and may you have a very blessed New Year!