I am not sad. This is the last of so many good byes over the years...so many losses as the disease ravaged her once bright mind and stole her beautiful smile and her humor and simple joy in living. Right now I am rejoicing that she is free from any pain or fear, and most of all free from the terrible confusion that haunted her days for a long time now.
I am sure I will have sad moments. I loved my sister dearly, and I would not be the person I am without having had her loving presence in my life. She was my sister, my friend, and in many ways she was my mother too.
About Two Years Ago
The Alzheimer's was advanced, but she was still trying to have fun and joke with me. It was a bittersweet day.
What joy you must be having as you explore your new world.
Thanks for loving me always and sharing so much of my life. I'm finally reading the book you gave me a few years ago. I couldn't do it till recently, but a few days ago it felt right. As I read it, I'll picture you reading together with me as we so often did.
Hey, sweetie, sing a duet with Mahalia Jackson for me! How about "Walkin' in Jerusalem"? Oh, perfect! I wish I could hear you.
I love you, little big sister. Jesus must have been so happy to see you arrive! I'll be with you soon.